Will be MIA for a week. DIGITAL FREEZE...

Just felt like writting...

Its been awhile since I have had a properly written blog post. I find it a little draggy and I prefer vlogs now that I've started because well, its just so much more fun to vlog. So why am I writing instead of doing something stupid in front of my camera? Truth is that I'm just not in the mood. The Christmas vlog mood is gone and I'm left with this "screw-the-world" attitude. Take note that as I start this post, I still have no idea of what I want to talk about. I'm just winging it.


I'll start off with a quote: 

"Fake friends are like cheap products.Its nice when you first got it, but it only lasts until you realize how lousy it is."

That is an original quote by yours truly by the way. Unless someone else thought of it before then it would just mean that I didn't know he/she said it? I'm not making any sense.


As 2010 comes to an end, I find myself constantly thinking about the past. I think of all the memories I've had in school and with my friends. I think of all the people in my life who betrayed me and caused problems. I think of all the people I used to hate (or still hate).


I'm turning 20 in a few months time and it scares me. The fact that I can no longer be classified as a teen just makes me sit down and really think things through. Have I done enough? Have I done all I could to be the person I am today? What have I done anyway?


Experiences make a person. As for me, I built myself from all the bad things. The betrayal, the hurt, the disappointments, all these things shaped me. I know there are more people out there with bigger issues than myself but I feel that all these events in my life has taught me to never let my guard down. Never let anyone in. Now at 19, I have my guard up so high I just can't trust anyone. I do have a small circle of friends that I'd trust so much, I'd put my life in their hands without a doubt. But for most cases, I wouldn't.


Two years in college has taught me that people will not hesitate to take you down if you stand in their way of something. If you think high school is worse, think again. I used to think that high school people are full of drama and that once I go to college, things will all get better. What I had learned within the first month of college totally changed my perspective of things. In high school, people argue and fight and call each other names. In college, everything goes down under the radar. Nothing is ever what it seams. The smile you see on each face hides the monster that lies underneath just waiting for the right moment to take down whoever it wishes.


I actually have so much more on my mind that I'd like to spill out because its eating my up from inside. The smile on my face everyday just hides all the frustration and now you all know. I was expecting this post to be so much longer. Something like a 10 page final report. More to come. It feels good to be writing after a long long absence from college. I really can't wait to start classes once I transfer to the States. I just hope my brain could still process new things.


I'm not happy of the progress I made today. Although I've released part of my burden, I still have so much inside that needs to be released. I really want to clear out everything before I go off.


Speaking of going off, that's another thing that disappoints me. But I won't and I can't talk about it because its not pretty. This is actually one of the main contributing factors to my mood these days. But whatever. I am leaving whether you guys like it or not. Honestly, I don't give a damn. I bet you all feel the same. Its been 19 years and now its time for me to spread my wings (and fly like a G6).


I will be going on a digital freeze for a week starting Christmas day. Digital freeze is a term I created to name a challenge I have created for myself. I plan to live life without Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, blogging, vlogging, 3G, and internet for a week. I know I complained about not being able to go online in Australia but to be completely honest, it was the most stressful period of my life ever since I started having access to the internet (aside from the navigating of course). This challenge is to try and capture the peace I had felt back when I was on vacation in Australia.


I'm stressed. I'm tired. I'm cranky. I need a solution. I need a way out.


See you guys in my next post. If I don't post up anything before Christmas, see you on New Year's day.


Ivan

Merry Christmas!

Christmas songs should just remain as the classics and not anything from Lady Gaga. Anyway a very Merry Christmas to all my viewers and a Happy New Year! Happy Holidays and enjoy every moment left with me if you are in Penang because I'll be leaving soon! haha.

Merry Christmas!

Twister, Twisted, GRENADE!

I have honestly NEVER played Twister in my life before. Went over to Melvin's new crib and played Twister with the OLLOs in his room. The rest was history. The song Grenade by Bruno Mars has become a very popular song among err..... ALL humans so I thought I'd give it a go...

*Longest vlog ever @ 11minutes. Pictures to follow. I still haven't posted pictures for the last vlog.*

Card Games, 7aste, and Breakfast...

The OLLO gang came over to my place to play card games last week. Random visit from them because I couldn't go out. I was at 32 Mansion for 7aste with Melvin and Ning (I was the bright lamp, obviously). After a long night at 7aste, we head home and had our breakfast shortly after.

*Will update with pictures soon but for now its just my vlog*

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag...?

OLLO!

This word is getting very addictive. Anyway we ditched the campfire and had some real fun. Ning, Daniel, it was nice to meet you both. Janice, good to see you again. Melvin, .... Melvin...

Random fun. I need more of this before I leave for the states. Till then... OLLO!

Ballads...

These two tracks are definitely my favorite ballads at the moment. New group S.M. The Ballad's  Miss You and 2AM's You Wouldn't Answer My Calls. S.M. The Ballad is a group that SME started with Super Junior's Kyuhyun, SHINee's Jonghyun, TRAX's Jay, and rookie Jino. All of which have very good vocals. I guess they were formed to compete with 2AM? Anyway here are the tracks. I don't get the MVs though.

Do let me know if you guys understand the Music Video. Especially the 2AM one.

Just had my lunch. Felt random.

I was itching to make a video after I had my lunch so here it is. Nothing much just a plain vlog but it is the first video I've made during the day in a very long time. Most of my videos were made when you guys were asleep. So yes I was being random and I don't have anything else to say. WATCH!

What now...?

If you guys have read the comments on the chatbox to the right, Decay and Guest have both voiced out their strong opinion on the videos I've been making. Guest claims that my videos are awkward and offensive while Decay said they were horrendous and lame. Decay also had a go at my Kpop addiction and called me a hypocritical being. Funny how I am thankful for the comments.

Well I have removed my videos for the time being because what Guest said kinda hit me. I mean, I'm no longer a kid so I can't go around offending everyone and expect to get away with it. Even though I'd love to.

So what does this mean? Where do I go from here? I have decided to do only vlogs for the time being but IF I find good and unoffensive material, I might just make videos of it. I will however try to complete my "Australia Vacation Summary" and "Things I'll Miss" video series. I don't think those would offend anyone now would it? What say you, Decay and Guest?

I also took Decay's comment seriously and thought about what impact my videos had. Dude/Girl, if I offended your "peeps", grow a pair and get over it. My Kpop addiction has nothing to do with the videos. How stupid are you to ask me the question "How different are you compared to those you claim to be snapping the 'new era' pictures?" ? I am diffenrent because I simply don't take those "new era" profile pictures. Are you like brain dead? I guess I've hit a spot seeing how badly you took that video. Do you even know what hypocrite means? Being a hypocrite would require me to have the "new era" picture in my own social networking profiles and calling the others lame. But I don't have those "new era" pictures, now do I? Please think before you vomit words all over the place. I accept your comment on my videos and how badly it was made and that was exactly what I asked for. You should've just stopped there mate.

Everyone pokes a little fun at others all the time. I like to put it out there for my friends to see. Please save yourself the pain and stop watching. I cannot promise you that I'll meet your "standards" in my future videos. Kpop is a choice of music and everyone has the right to choose what they listen. I can think of a million people who can tell me Kpop is not as good as the music they listen to so just zip your pussy of a mouth and shove it. Like I said, Kpop has nothing to do with any of the videos. Its just something I like.

Well I could've made this entire post a video and talk non-stop but I had decided to put it in words because it has been awhile. Guest, thank you for your comments and if I had offended you, I apologize. As I said in my reply, in time, my content will change. It was never meant to be offensive. I did because I had free time and wanted to try things out. As for you, my dear friend Decay, I guess I've said all there is for me to say for now. But I do have one more thing to say before I click "PUBLISH"...................

GO FUCK YOURSELF. =)

Have a nice day everybody! 

Profile Pictures #1

I've noticed a trend lately. People have been taking interesting "new era" profile pictures and I think I should let you guys know. Let me know what you think. Cool? or just plain weird? You tell me.