CNY

i havent been updating again... damn myself for being a lazy bum.. anyway, its already the year of the ox.. whoo!!

well on the eve of the eve of Chinese New Year, my family had a reunion dinner for the 1st time since even before i was born... well at least that's what i remember... dad's second brother and family came back to Penang and stayed at our house... it took a little convincing to get granny to come for the dinner though... she wanted to come later... =.= Auntie Imm joined in as well and so did Eugene and his mum...

as usual, its steamboat.. loads and LOADS of steamboat... i mean we bought so much that till now we still have leftovers... that cant be good... it was a pretty good reunion dinner though.. i'm glad at least part of the family were there...

i present : le kiddie table... ^_^

thankfully, i didnt have to sit there... i was on the adult table... haha... anyway on to the next day... the eve of Chinese New Year...

delivered some goodies to my grand uncle and headed to Sri York for the Lim-family-new-year-eve-steamboat-lunch-thingamajig... ok i gotta think of a better term... so its steamboat... yes, STEAMBOAT... didnt stay long though...

back home, i forgot what we did for the rest of the day... oh yea... i washed my car for about an hour and a half... LOL.. hey at least its VERY clean... but i think the birds in my housing area redecorated my car already... abominations...

dinner... well what else is there to eat? maybe it was.....STEAMBOAT!! yes... again... my steamboat agony is almost as bad as Yi May's fear of Passions of Kerala by now... haha...

CHINESE NEW YEAR 2009
DAY 1

GONG XI FA CAI!! ok i'm sorta behind but oh well... anyway after breakfast got ready blah blah blah... i'm sorry... so took the first angpow of the day from mum and dad.... headed to aunt's house immediately...

guess what caught my eye...

PUG IN CLOTHES!!!

and yes that is a denim mini skirt... lol.. my cousin bought the pug for my uncle..

after having my aunt's mee-sua, sat for abit more and chat with relatives... my favourite part is hearing people say i got taller and better looking and thinner and..... ok fine i'll stop... but i feel special... whee... *slaps*

so next stop was my other uncle's place.. the best part about going there is the cookies... my aunt makes the best jam-tarts and other stuff... and i can only have it once a year...

off to grand-uncle's next... granny is also there... more food... i swear i'm getting fat... got stuck there cuz there was a new plasma, home-theatre system and blu-ray movies involved... hahahaha

mum went traditional this year..

after finally finding the will to move our bums away from the plasma tv, we went to the Lim family's place... this year, uncle Shyang Guey cant come back to Penang... i think he's working in Vancouver... Yi Ping is in.......Ireland? but besides the two of them, everyone else is around... since we went a little late this year, everyone else left... but the hosts were so kind to save us some of the goodies... our visit didnt last long though... its sad cause usually we spend the longest time there.. the Lims are like my second family... well that's what i used to think when i was a kid... cousins, remember Yi May? lol

that's May with mum...

DAY 2

i actually woke up for a morning run! and not only that, i freaking ran twice... TWICE..!! lol.. anyway after that i collapsed on the dining table after my breakfast... stayed home pretty much the whole day... dad decided to invite the Lims for dinner... guess where he decided to go....

oh yes...

yup its true...

its May's favourite place in the world........



PASSIONS OF KERALA..!!


hahaha... she ate here like 3 times this week already?

while waiting for them to arrive, all i had to keep myself entertained was....

thank God for these!!


they arrived soon after and while everyone was chatting and waiting for the food...

kevin was busy with the iTouch..

after dinner we went to the foodcourt to have ice-kacang... and i spotted this :


freaking LED sign for Char Kuey Teow stand....???? now i know why one plate costs 4 bucks...

DAY 3

woke up real late.. was online and playing PS with Eugene all day...

went to Sri York again for Jacqueline's 15th Bday by the poolside... Eugene tagged alone.. we had Dominos and PizzaHut and home-made ondeh-ondeh... =D

mum was hungry... or not...

me, Kevin and Eugene...

that's me with May, my "cousin".. haha... gossiping doesnt work when you're in different states, doesnt it? LOL..

and then it was cake time..!!

there's actually more photos but this post is getting a bit too long... we had a pretty good time... i guess that's all for now... will try to update more often... =)

I CAN STILL SEE MY FEET!!! LOL

out..

it pisses me off that people hate me for who i am..

it pisses me off that i cant change my mindset towards life..

it pisses me off that i'm judged solely on my results and not my efforts..

it pisses me off that i never get the chance to show what i'm made off..

it pisses me off that opportunities never come to me..

it pisses me off that some people just like to fuck my life up...

it pisses me off that people take me for granted...

it pisses me off that i'm never appreciated...

it pisses me off that i only hv a few true friends...

it pisses me off being me..

i'm sick of always being last in life.. i'm sick of being the one people take advantage of and never show gratitude.. i'm tired of tryin and i'm tired of always needing to impress someone to get somewhere... i'm not one who sucks up to get what i want... and i hate people who suck up...

i hate those who have always doubted me... and now, i'll make them regret... i've already out-run the darkness last week... and tomorrow i will do it again... i'll push as far as my limits even if it kills me... i know it isnt going to be easy because i'm still recovering from all the bumps and bruises and fatigue.. but i'm trying anyway..

from tomorrow onwards, i'm gonna drag myself out of bed early morning every morning and i will go for runs.. it'll hurt like hell but i'd rather hurt myself than giving those people another chance to doubt me.. i'm grateful for the confidence some has put in me but most people doubt me... all the frustration i felt today has jump-started my brain and pulled my soul out of the retirement road... i'm back... i'll try even if it kills me... i'll put my body through hell if i have to... if that's what it takes to prove them wrong..

out..

Early Retirement?

sticks and stones may break my bones...
but dives and a losing streak broke my spirit....

day 3 of the SAP Challenge and another disappointing result... after losing to the junior darkness in straight sets, i had to get a good result against Jee Nee... but i didnt..

i threw away the game against the darkness because i heard some bad news and was pissed and didnt feel like playing anymore... after losing the game i realised i made a mistake...

Jee Nee proved to be a tough opponent to face.. i took the first set easily 11-3... she up-ed her game and took the next 2 sets... i struggled but managed to claim the 4th and take the match to a deciding set.... both Jee Nee and i went all out in the 5th...

there were many dives and one in particular towards the end of the match will be remembered for a long long time... Jee Nee played a boast and i was very far away from the ball.... i decided to dive, nothing unusual.... but this time the ball was so far and i dived in with so much forced that i ended up sliding all the way.... i didnt get the ball.... =.=

my ribs were hurting after that and breathing was a little hard... the match went into a deuce and we exchanged match points untill one point where i told myself its either take it now or forget it.... i tried a drop shot when Jee Nee had match point... it hit the tin and that was it... any hope of playing in the 1st leg of SportExcel in KL vanished as the ball hit the tin with a loud thud..

it was a good match and the only other time i played such a long match was against Dennis Boon in Ipoh... i was disapponted that i did not win but content with my performance... i'm surprised i even lasted till the end... credits to Jee Nee for pushing to the limits... honestly, there's no one i rather lose that match to than her... it was a great match...

as i sat down trying to catch my breath, i thought about my options and my future with this sport... i was planning to play for the Northeastern Huskies in Boston... but with this performance, will i even get in? drowning myself with hot water in the shower, i actually considered hanging up my racket after this tournament is over... not much spirit is left in me... the final push was never there when i needed it... and regardless of my efforts to move up in the game, things that are out of my control will always come around and be a bitch...

no matter how much passion one has and no matter how hard that person is willing to push, it all comes down to if you are meant to be screwed over...

my failure to get into the squad to KL is making me think about how much i really want to continue my futile quest in being a better player.... maybe i should stick to just one game.... football maybe? maybe i didnt keep on pushing because i love the game... maybe it was other factors that motivated me to pursue a better level? everything is a blur now...

i guess i'll end it here... getting very sleepy... as i go to sleep tonight, my future in the sport hangs in the balance... could i ever live up to the level i set for myself? or was i meant to play other sports? one thing is for sure.... it'd be upsetting to leave the sport after nearly 8 years being in it... i practically grew up with the whole lot... perhaps its time to change...

signing out...

today is the first day of the 1st SAP Challenge...

i was unfortunate to be drawn as the last seed and therefore playing against Yassin, the top seed... you can see where this is going..

i had a hard time playing against Yassin.. he played a very fast game... i tried to slow it down but my efforts were ridiculed by his constant pressing.... so what do i do when he prevents me from slowing down? i play hard.... BIG mistake... I was unable to push Yassin like i did in Ipoh 2 years ago...

losing the match pushed me down to the bottom half of the draw.... and once again my luck amazes me.... i'm playing against the mini-Darkness tomorrow.... those in the squash court would know exactly what i'm talking about..

its a win or win match tomorrow... i desperately need to get my butt back up the ranks... losing to the younger players isnt an option....

on other matters... Allan i know you read my blog at the courts today.... but i honestly dont care what gets spread anymore... the facts will be the facts... i'm not running away from it anymore... i'm actually confirming it for you guys this time... i'm tired of hiding.... not that hiding the last time worked...

anyway i'm done here....

signing out...

i got nothing much to update for now..

went through my new clothes today and found out i actually have like 8 new t-shirts and 7 pairs of pants.. LOL and i was telling my mum how little clothes i have for this Chinese New Year...

finally bought new shoes today... not going to say much... i'll just show you how it looks like..

my new Nike..

anyway, the first leg of the SAP Challenge is starting this Tuesday... now i'm not sure if i want to go to the courts and train tomorrow to gear up for the tournament, or do i play at Sri York? well i'll just decide tomorrow..

i guess that's it for now...

7
DAYS

till CHINESE NEW YEAR..!!

signing out..

i just came back from college.. thought i'd do some updating...

anyway english class was ok... i sucked big time when i read my assignment... kept stuttering... i was thinking to myself "relax you ass!"... anyway Ms. Angeline said it was alright... means it didnt suck THAT badly right?

bought bread home so that my sis could have breakfast but she ate already... =.= perfect.. rested for awhile then head back to college to have lunch with the gang... played a round of pool with Adam (another AUP student who happens to be an ex-SSP student as well)... i have to say i idnt play as bad as i thought i might... in fact the only reason i lost was because i missed the last shot... not bad for someone who plays the game only once every few years...

i finally finished watching Heroes season 3 last night.... there's going to be a season 4 coming out (soon i hope)... season 4 is titled "Fugitives".... cant wait for that to start... Hearoes has turned into my all time favourite show! and yes it has taken over Power Ranger's spot on my favourites list... LOL... gone were the days when i wont miss a single episode of Power Rangers... haha...

anyway i guess that's all for now... i'm going to Sri York again later... mum's coming home too...

updated: my friends and i from the Sungai Ara area has made a move to create a football club in INTI... next step is get members and we might even start Futsal... i also put my name up for a new squash club... i hope there are squashers in INTI.. if not, its never too late to start...

out..

English assignment...??

Strawberries

Strawberries, like relationships have to be chosen properly. Picked too soon a strawberry will be almost tasteless. Like the strawberry, relationships that start too soon tend to be nothing but mere puppy love. Chosen at the right time, we get all the sweetness of the strawberry whereas in a relationship we get to experience feelings that are out of this world. I feel that is why many people give their loved ones strawberries as a symbol of their affection...

~ end ~

yes that is my latest english assignment... dont laugh, i did it in like 5 minutes... well since yesterday, i have started playing at Sri York... dad says that it'll be good for me to play aginst different kinds of players... its kinda hard to play at Sri York due to the condition of the court but i think i'm getting the hang of it... so for now i think i'll be playing at SY on mondays and wednesdays and at the courts on tuesdays and thursdays... friday is my football day.... cant miss that...

college life has been forgiving so far... well at least for AUP... i mean the schedules are alright and the lecturers are ok... but there's something about maths that just makes me wonder.... WHY is it that no matter how old or whatever the teaching style is, maths is always boring!? its so weird... oh and moral, its fine that its in english but our lecturer tends to beat around the bush... tsk tsk...

i havent seen or know of any club or games in INTI that interests me but i think i will find it soon.... i mean they gotta have SOMETHING i like right?

just now i found out that this year's MSSPP tournament clashes with the SportExcel 1st leg... well i dont wanna point fingers but i think this is all a setup in order to let the Butterworth players play in MSSM... i mean its ridiculous... if they had pretty good players then i dont see what the problem is.... unfortunately, their top 2 players are only at under-15 level.... i mean if you want to let your players go first think of the state.... what kind of humiliation will Penang face when they go to MSSM throwing in an under-15 player as their under-18 player?? those were the days when MSSPP was run by people who actually know the game well and act fairly... now the tournament is conducted by someone whose interests is not in the state taking home silverware but seeing his players get there... i'd like to see them play against Selangor... its saddening...

well thank God i'm not in the fray anymore... i had my experience in MSSM and enjoyed it... at least i have the memories... now i'm just playing my best without a coach and hope that i can still play tournaments... i want to make my last year count...

i guess that's it for now... didnt expect to say so much anyway....

out..

started taking over Peter's classes today... well only two of them but still... the younger class is hard to manage.... they wont freaking stand still for a second... keep running around like they're on drugs or something.... the other class is alright....

tomorrow got coaching again... Kesh's class..... damn tired la.... ran 10 laps this morning and almost died.... supposed to do 12 but couldnt.... Allan said i can stop so i did.... or i'd be posting this from a hospital bed now....

and the saddest news of all is my laptop has no anti-virus.... and yup, just my luck, virus...... bloody hell man.... i only wanted to get the dvd decoder for my WMP.... assholes disguised it.... so it happened to be a virus..... those dumb fucks got nothing better to do.... now i'm trying to save my laptop from crashing....

i need to buy norton.... fast.... maybe i'll reformat my laptop when mum gets home.....

signing off....

well i have started college and i have to say its going pretty well for now.... i'm enjoying my time after SPM but one thing always bothers me....

i dont know why it always comes back to haunt me but every time it returns, its never pleasant... i'm not proud of this condition and it does ruin things for me sometimes..... every time i thought i put it behind, it catches up with me and bites back....

now, more than ever..... and i cant stand it... fighting it has never helped... however, embrassing it isnt much joy either.... i just wish sometimes i can explain why these happen...

what i learned from life so far is that you cant always have what you want.... sometimes, you just have to take what you can get... it might not be what your heart really wants but it gets you going... dwelling in the past is just too painful....

i dont know if anyone knows where this is going... honestly i dont give a damn..... it has always bothered me why i cant put certain thing behind and let it remain a memory... it pains me to see my desiresa being achieved by others while i remain as i am not knowing what the outcome would be....

things were never clear.... i just wish it could be.... there were times i wish i could just go back and take it all away... but i know that would be nothing but a futile attempt... i cant change what has been done and i never regretted it..... my only regret is that it was never complete.....

some of you might not know what i was talking about.... was it nothing but pure nonsense? or was it something important.... some of you might know.... i dont really bother.... i just needed to let it out....

signing off.....

SAP Annual Squashers' Camp '09

3rd January 2009

it was a Saturday and it did not get off to a good start... of all weeks, it rained this week when we have the camp instead of runs... but that did not dampen our spirits...

i left my house at 7am after hearing news from Dennis that it was raining heavily at the Water Sports Centre.. i fetched Nicholas and Andria with my sister tagging along...

we arrived at the Water Sports Centre at around 7.30am and it was still raining... we quickly prepared Plan B.... thankfully, the rain wasn't very therefore we could carry on with some of the not-so-physical activities while hoping the rain would stop...

not many people turned up for this camp... i was a little disappointed at the attendance as there was much effort from certain members of the organizing committee... regardless of the no-shows, roughly 75 people still showed up...

Max and Wee Nee at the registration... BR being a busybody....

participants eager to start..

ice-breaker...

the most adorable siblings at the camp..

since it was still raining, not only did we have to cramp all participants and officials under the small shaded area, we also had to divide the area into two sections in order to have the registration and the ice-breaker....

the ice-breaker was fairly simple, the idea was to get every participant to get to know new people by writing down their names and other details... an idea i extracted from the H Factor Workshop... we quickly moved on to the Team Poster making session..... i personally did not check out the posters (although being appointed 1 of the 3 judges)...

as the poster making session ends, so did the rain.... a few committee members quickly set up the track as i drove around the entire Tanjung Bungah area searching for materials.... and so, the first race began... participants were required to spin around on the spot for 10 times before proceeding to collect the sponge and filling up the bottle at the end of the track.... it was amusing seeing those small and big kids lose their balance in their hopeless attempt to go in a straight line..


some of the committee members decided to try twirling and keeping our balance so we designed a challenge.... spin 10 times and dribble the ball across the track.... we all failed miserably... it was fun trying though....

i gave it a shot...

vainsanity at its best...
(vain + insanity = vainsanity)

well well... look who decided to kick some balls... haha..

Structure Building was next... all they had were straws..... participants were allowed to have lunch as well... after lunch, us seniors judged the structures and honestly only 2 teams did a good job... Green (Ryan) and Orange (Khartik)..... Yellow team was disgraceful as our OWN COMMITTEE member BR helped the team captain/sister Vanessa... dude seriously, you're hopeless no offense.... he also extended the time when none of the seniors approved of it.... in the end, yellow got the worst score for the structure building....

next up : Sack Race.... it wasnt as much fun as the first race but fun none the less.... this one boy from the Orange team jumped like a kangaroo dammit.... amazing stuff.... after that, it was the balls-in-between-your-legs race.... funny stuff.... the next game is a little complicated and hard to explain but it was slow and the hype died after awhile....

the so-called "main event" was next... teams have to pass the water balloons from one end to the other without bursting them.... well us seniors played with the balloons more than the kids..... anyway next up was the flour-in-your-face game.... oh we had real fun then...

immediately after the game ended, we moved on to the prize presentation.... Uncle Yeap was given the honour to hand out the prizes to the 6th, 5th, 4th and 3rd placing... well we didnt really have other choices so BR's dad gave out 2nd and 1st place.... =.=

this is where the REAL fun begins..... water balloons were pelted at the coaches and they retaliated... we sent our own Max Ong behind enemy lines and he got caught.... what happened you might ask? he got a little swim... Allan, Kesh and BR took his pants off... poor guy.... well i wanted to push Dennis in but when i thought Allan came to help me, i got betrayed......... he helped Dennis pull me into the sea and then a whole group of people came trying to get my pants off as well..... at least i tied the string........ and thank heavens for the simple invention called contact lenses! i managed to scream, struggle and kick my way out of it and ran for solid ground....

in the end, almost everyone got wet.... no wait, everyone got wet.... only one however was a little sore-loser..... i mean come one, everyone was soaked......

all in all, it was fun... i sure hope next year's camp will be better and i hope i can make it... i guess that's all for now.... i dont have all the pictures so i cant upload...


signing off...

yesterday my mum and i went to INTI and finally enrolled for the American University Program...

went to the squash court later and that's when things started to get a little crazy.... Allan told me to play against Wee Nee and made a bet.... if i lost to her i will have to wear her skirt during the squash camp on saturday.... i lost.....

to try and get myself out of that situation i played against Max.... Allan said if i could take a set off Max then i dont have to wear the skirt... instead, Max will.... so i managed to take a set.... this time, Max decided to challenge me to try and get away from it.... the condition was i get a 6 point advantage..... i lost.... unfortunately he was way fitter than me so now its back to me....

so i think to myself........ now if Patrick Dempsey can wear a dress for a movie, why cant i? right? so what the heck...... go crazy and take it fair and square.... after all, its just a bet....

signing off....